Sunday, December 16, 2012

They are everywhere...

Ever since seeing Danny, Aurora has been more unsettled than ever.  It was like he was some kind of catalyst for more images and feelings.  She also couldn't understand why the mentioning of his new project kept popping back up all the time.  Aurora was thrilled and interested in it, but it seemed like it was almost some sort of nagging message that completely confused her.  It was becoming rather overwhelming for Aurora.  She felt like almost everywhere she went in town caused her to have these vivid memories and emotions.  The only real sanctity she had left was her house, thankfully Aurora had no feelings whatsoever there unless they appeared to her in a dream.  She was a little baffled by this, but then Aurora remembered in her other life she never lived in this particular house.
One place in town that Aurora now tried to avoid seeing at all costs was Dogwood Playland.  This children's park made her have so many images flash it was too much for her.  All Aurora would see was these memories of her letting her children play around in the park.  Sometimes it would just be her and sometimes her husband would be there.  Once again all the faces she didn't know weren't clear but the feelings of how she felt were.  Aurora was so happy.  When these memories first happened sometimes Aurora would allow herself to go there and feel them, in the beginning she liked the warm emotions they brought.  However the feeling of melancholy that would sink in when Aurora came back to reality was so depressing she had to start avoiding the park all together.
Although some places in were easy stay away from, others weren't.  If the park wasn't bad enough, now Aurora had to deal with these images when she bartended at the Juice Bar.  Randomly during some of her shifts she would start seeing herself at the bar hanging out with her dream man and some friends.  The foosball table was the worst trigger, she would always see flashes of herself and people playing and laughing.  It was so distracting.  It wasn't like Aurora just couldn't come here anymore, she needed the money and she liked bartending.  So she would just find herself looking down and concentrating on the bar, cleaning everything and anything just to distract herself.
One night after a particularly rough night at the Juice Bar Aurora just decided she needed to relax, even though it was well past midnight she decided a swim under the full moon would hopefully comfort her mind.
As she stood there on the board ready to jump in, Aurora kept telling herself they were all just crazy dreams.  None of it was real, stop letting it take over.  However no matter how many times she told herself this, something kept convincing her that there a lot more to this than just being vivid fantasies and that left her scared.



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